The last few weeks I’ve been a bit uninspired, to say the least, in a lull and a limbo: my body is slow, still integrating all the upgrades of the eclipse season; my energy is in a quiet introspection, the well of my creativity a bit dried up. In the past, I would obsess about it: ruminating on why, what's wrong with me, let's get out of it, be productive, dig deeper, confront my inner saboteur, shame myself for being "lazy", feel guilt for being unproductive, get rigid with myself about getting out of this limbo. But now, through many years of self-discovery and inner work, I’ve learnt to live what needs to be lived, no pressure to get out of it, no rush for it to be over, no judgment about what I should or should not be doing, feeling. I've learnt to welcome all of me, to accept it and to love it. I've learnt to give myself space and grace, to listen to my heart and to notice everything my body is asking of me.
So this time I cherished this season I am in, giving my body much needed rest, taking long slow walks, sitting in meditations longer, nourishing my body through good food, spending my evenings in mindful contemplations and being with my heart.
We are cyclical being, living in sync with the sun and the moon. Our home- Planet Earth-goes through season. Our society demands a constant output but it is more long-term sustainable to create a flow of your energy that is coherent with the cycles you are in. After every pull, comes a push, after every lull comes a blast off into the juicy flow of creativity. After every dark night comes a light of a morning sun. And of course after every winter comes spring. And it's important to honor every season.
Yesterday, in my session with my mentor (yes, mentors have mentors :), I was guided through a powerful visualization to connect to my energy. At first I was just a little puddle of water in the dark and wet cave. But drop by drop my body of water grew in size, soon enough I was a steady stream, picking up its pace as a current carried me, making my way through the cave. And all of a sudden I was blasted out as a powerful waterfall, falling and merging into a crystal clear water pool surrounded by luscious tropical plants. I was the waterfall, the pool, the stream and that single drop I came from. I was the Source of Life, and Life itself. In that moment i was reminded, I am a multi-dimensional being, and whether I am in a lull or an inspirational flow, bursting with life-force energy like a waterfall, or content and peaceful like a pond, I am life in every aspect of it. All of my expression is welcome here. Every expression of me, the uninspired lull and an inspired creation, is needed and is important.
Wherever you are, be there wholeheartedly. Honor every season you are in. Ride the current of your energy. And meet all of you in love!
Every season has its gifts and only when we are fully in sync with the rhythm of our heart, metaphorically but also literally, coherent in our heart, we are able to have greater insight into what each season brings. We are able to meet ourselves with compassion and love only our heart knows. We are able to be fully present with all of life, in every moment and each stage of it. And we are able to love Life for all that it is, and ourselves for all that we are!
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